I’ve totally been slacking on blogging and even posting on our Facebook page. Part of me really doesn’t feel guilty about that but part of me does. I think the main reason I’ve been avoiding this blog and the Facebook page is because I haven’t been doing well (health wise). I figure if I ignore it, everyone else will too. Right?

Fortunately, I have an amazing support system that actually gives a shit so the show must go on. With the inspiration of a few comments and posts on The Weight Is Over Facebook page, I’ve gotten a new burst of motivation (again). Here’s what’s on my mind:

Weighing In Daily:

My mom recently started the Prevent program through Blue Cross Blue Shield and the question about weighing in daily came up in FB conversation. She noted that part of the Prevent program is to weigh yourself daily.

I feel like over the years with everything I’ve ever tried, weighing daily was treated as some kind of voodoo. Like a self-sabotage system to set you up for failure. But the more I’ve thought about it, the more I think the opposite is true.

Right now, I weigh in weekly on either Thursday or Friday. And from then until the next weigh in, it seems like each week is harder and harder to stay on track. By weighing daily, my mom pointed out, our decisions related to food, health, or exercise would (ideally) be more top of mind. By looking at that scale each day, you’ll have “just weighed in.”

With that being said, beginning tomorrow (2/15), I’m going to start weighing in daily through the end of the month with the hope that I will stay more focused on my goals during the week. I will weigh myself each morning after I wake up and use the bathroom and I’ll be in my jammies. I’m going to manually record these days rather than putting them on MFP. I will continue to weigh weekly with Krissy and Darla “officially” recording those weigh ins. I’ll fill you in the first week of March and we’ll go from there. (P.S. Mom, how is weighing in daily going for you? I’d like to hear an update on your thoughts now that you’ve been doing it for a week or two.)

Dream Outfit:

Krissy recently asked/brought up dream outfits. What would we wear if we could kill it on the runway and feel as confident as possible? I’ve been daydreaming about dream outfits since I was probably 10. No joke. I’ve never, ever (in my opinion) been able to pull anything off if you know what I mean. Because of my size, everything looks like shit on me. This isn’t a self-hate statement, it’s an honest one. Swimsuits are a bitch, leggings are social suicide, tunics are still too short as shirts, dresses look horrendous. Nothing works when you’re 3-4 times the size of a normal 26 year old women.

I can’t choose a “dream” outfit because almost everything I see is a dream for me. I know that I can wear anything I want and I kind of do I suppose but I can only wear what comes in my size. More times than not, I’m only wearing what I’m wearing because it fits, not because it’s my “style.”

If I could explain my dream style it would be something like: fun, carefree, 20-something cute. Think leggings, tunics, dresses, floppy sun hats, chunky sweaters. I just bought a too small sweater a couple weeks ago that I loved. I couldn’t pass up the deal. It’s not incredibly small but I need to lose at least 2 sizes before it will fit and just because it will fit, won’t mean that it’ll look as good on me as I wish it would.

Fargo Marathon:

 This one was just brought up today. The marathon is May 19-21. I’m not sure I understand the registration fees so that ultimately decides if I’ll join because fuck that if it’s more than $30 which seems a little ridiculous doesn’t it? To run? Or in my case walk, shuffle, jog..

Fees aside, this might be the short term goal that I NEED. No, I do not have any desire at all to run a marathon. Not at this point in my life anyway but if I sign up, it’s not an option to back out and it’s about 3 months away. If anyone else on our Facebook page is willing to also do it, I’m counting myself in. Lets do this.

My only two goals will be to finish the 5K and to pretty please not be last. The one and only time that I’ve ever been part of something like that was March of Dimes years ago. Not only were we the very last and just about dead but no one was even there to great us at the end. It was disappointing.

So, what’s on your mind? What are your dream outfits that you can’t fit into YET? Have you taken part in a 5K or 10K, what tips do you have for someone like me? What’s your take on weighing in daily? I’d love to hear what you think!